I need a creative outlet and this is it. Facebook has become too mainstream. Twitter is still developing. Here, I can be Frank. The campaign is going very good. Months ago, I was a joke. Ignored. This time last year, I was the subject of pity.
No more.
We are building relationships. Coalitions. Bridges.
What I witnessed tonight, inside a Historic Downtown Panama City tavern, was resilience.
I must remain humble, for the people I continue to fight for, are those who want a better life, are working for a better life and, God willingly, will have a better life.
Some of them do not have the privilege of voting. But it doesn’t matter to me. They are still my constituent and their voice is just as important as the big shot attorney across the street.
We’re going the distance … and there’s no looking back!
La Fiesta
16 09 2010Comments : 2 Comments »
Tags: The Campaign
Categories : Humility, Panama City, Politics
A New Perspective on Family
9 03 2010I woke up around 10 a.m. Sunday morning. It was one of those rare mornings on the trip that Jim didn’t rouse me at the crack of dawn. And for that I was grateful.
I called Keith and he said he’d be by the hotel in about an hour to pick me up. I was looking forward to spending the day with my brother, Courtney, his loving wife and their beautiful baby girl Dillan.
Keith took me back to their townhouse in nearby Irving, a suburb of Dallas that for many years was home to the city’s beloved professional football team — the Dallas Cowboys. The Cowboys were my childhood favorite team and I watched many a game on Sundays after church. Dad usually watched them with me, but for some reason, he never rooted for the Cowboys. Dad always sided with the team playing the Cowboys. Maybe this was his way of establishing a rivalry between us.
Keith always rooted for the Tampa Bay Buccaneers, even when they won just a couple of games. He was loyal like that. Still is.
But on this Sunday, football was far from anyone’s mind. At the townhouse, Courtney pulled out their wedding album and suddenly we were skipping down memory lane. They had been married just a few short years, but the images seemed like so long ago.
For a guy my age, I haven’t been to many weddings. Just not my scene. Maybe one day I will tie the knot. They say it’s a life changer. Much like having a child. My little brother has done both and I am very proud of him.
Looking through the photos with Courtney was a bonding experience. My mother looked so happy. It was fun dancing with her at the reception.
After looking at pictures, we went shopping in the SouthLake section of Dallas. Turns out, dining with a toddler can be quite entertaining. Dillan was well behaved but she requires a lot of attention. You gotta make sure she doesn’t put just anything in her mouth. And luckily, she didn’t throw her food at anyone. I’m pretty sure I did that as an infant.
After we were finished, Keith left a hefty tip. “We like to eat out just like everybody else,” he said. This was a new perspective on family.
I was impressed at how well Keith navigated the stores, especially that bustling Barnes & Noble, with a loaded down stroller. It made me think about the summer in New York and noticing all those young couples pushing their baby strollers through Central Park.
I remember the look on their faces. For some, it was a look of sacrifice, while others appeared downright miserable. And then, there was the couple whose smiles could light up Broadway.
That’s what I saw from Keith and Courtney. I guess you would call it joy.
That night, after baby girl was put down to sleep, Keith helped me download some songs to my I-Pod. We talked a little about the upcoming college bowl season and then it was time for me to leave.
Courtney gave me a big hug and she asked Keith to take a few pictures of us. When I left, she had a tear in her eye. I hope it was a tear of joy. I really don’t care to be pitied. It’s way overrated.
On the ride back to the hotel, Keith and I mostly talked about the economy. He said the recession was starting to creep into his health care sector and, like most of us, he was none too thrilled.
“It’s going to get better,” I tried to assure him. At that point, the entire trip’s air of optimism had taken hold, “And, we’ll all be stronger for it.”
When I got back to the room, Jim was already fast asleep. We had a 12-hour drive back to Panama City ahead of us.
And I was ready to go home.
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Tags: Dallas, Dillan, Family
Categories : Family, Humility, Restaurants, Texas
Hats off in Monroe
9 12 2009The bartender at the Holiday Inn in Monroe was a woman with hair so red thoughts of Reba McEntire came dancing into my head.
Jim ordered us a couple of beers as I walked around the empty, darkened lounge. Football jerseys of past stars were framed on the walls. Most of the names I did not recognize, with the exception of an old Packers jersey, once worn by the great Brett Favre — Southern Mississippi’s favorite son.
It was the night before Thanksgiving and the lounge was dead. Reba bemoaned the local economy, serving quick notice that there would be no “2-for-1” specials on her watch.
This was no happy hour.
Reba said drugs were ruining Monroe and gambling was sucking the life out of the city.
Depressing stuff.
Before sinking deeper into Monroe’s sorrows, we left the lounge and headed into town for dinner at a nice riverfront establishment. Built on the banks of the Ouachita River, Warehouse No. 1 Restaurant came highly recommended.
There was valet parking out front, but Jim opted to handle that himself.
Once inside, we were greeted by the instant smell of cedar.
“Let’s eat at the bar,” Jim said.
This would become another signature of the trip. Eating at a restaurant bar was a somewhat foreign concept to me, but as Jim pointed out, “you get the best service when you eat at the bar.”
I ordered a steak filet medium well and they burned it pretty good. My beverage of choice, sweet tea, seemed to irk Jim and the young bartender, a burly fellow from Pittsburgh.
“I gotta pace myself,” I told Jim. The days ahead would provide ample drinking opportunities and I had to wade into those waters carefully. After all, my college years were well behind me.
Jim, however, drank like a fish. After dinner, he insisted we return to the hotel bar for another round. Reba was still there, as peppy as ever.
Jim tried to lift her spirits by promoting Panama City Beach as a prosperous place to relocate. He praised the emerging Pier Park development and told Reba if she wanted to make some serious cash in the service industry, PCB’s Margaritaville was the way to go.
That night, I had to help Jim back to the room. One too many rounds had made his walk a little wobbly.
Back at the room, Jim had a surprise in store for me.
“You’ve never seen me without my hair, have you?,” he said.
Jim proceeded to tell me about how he began to lose his hair at a young age. This was a huge confession on his part and I nodded understandably at every word.
He took off his silver-colored wig and went to bed — with the TV on, as was his custom, and the volume cranked up.
I had known Jim for more than seven years and always knew that he wore a wig, but seeing him without it was a shock to my system.
It made me focus more on his eyes.
His vanity made him appear more real.
Just one day into our trip together, Jim had revealed so much.
I wondered if I was doing the same.
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Categories : Humility, Louisiana, Restaurants
Birthday Reflections
17 10 2009During tough times you learn to appreciate things that you so often took for granted before. Expressions of love, genuine good-will and sincerity.
My birthday included all those, mostly summed up in two words: Happy Birthday.
The words came from those close and far away. Even Dad telephoned his well wishes.
After dinner, I took a walk around the fantasy town known as Rosemary Beach with a close friend. The cool autumn breeze is beginning to roll in.
My friend said I had many more ‘Happy Birthdays’ ahead of me.
I hope he is right.
There is a time in everyone’s life when you feel as if you are damaged beyond repair. It is uniquely human.
Battling back from that place is tough, hard and, at times, can feel like an impossible task.
This is when your faith is tested. Faith in mankind, faith in yourself and faith in God.
For 37 years, I have struggled with this faith. My anger and frustrations reached a boiling point during the summer in New York City.
Soon, I will tell you about the Summer of ’09 and as a disclaimer, you must know it will be raw, real and uncensored.
Are you ready my loyal readers?
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Tags: Education, Humility
Categories : Education, Humility
Lost and Found
11 10 2009In July of 2008 I lost my job.
In August of 2008 I lost my grandfather.
In October of 2008 I lost my mentor.
In March of 2009 I lost my car.
In June of 2009 I lost my way.
Through these losses, I have found humility. And it is humility which I must never lose.
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Tags: Humility
Categories : Humility
Road to Recovery
25 09 2009Being unemployed really stinks. Being unemployed without unemployment benefits really, really stinks. Being unemployed without a motor vehicle really, really REALLY stinks.
But enough doom and gloom.
I keep thinking, What Would Jesus Do?
Well, for starters, Jesus was a carpenter and there’s always work there. Maybe I should go back to school and hone my chops in construction.
I could build a temple for all of the unemployed.
Or not.
So, I guess I’ll just blog away until I return to the ranks of the working stiffs.
There’s therapy in this.
Ciao
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Tags: Recovery, Unemployed
Categories : Humility
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